Deep and wide

Dear R,

I started this project at your suggestion. I needed to think about the Gospel, and how it affected my daily life. Along the way, I’ve lost that. Not just in this art project blog thing, but in my daily life. It is easy to look at the circumstances of life and miss what they add up to: a deep need for the redeeming love of Christ.

I have that deep need. It is deeper than any woman’s love can fill. It’s meant to be that way. If a woman’s love were able to satisfy, I would not seek God. And God wants me to seek him, so he makes spaces in me that are impossible to fill but for His love.

And He can and does fill us with his love, when we seek him. It is fleeting and imperfect; I can’t stare at the sun very long. But it is such a grace that I even know to look to the sun.

I pray that I remember that I didn’t choose myself. I was chosen. And even though I don’t know where I’m going, He does; and I will follow, for he loves me. Deep and wide.

In Christ,